Quote of the day

 “An empty can makes the loudest noise.”

What’s mind blowing though, is how the loud noise can actually become the instrument of authority. How amazing is that. 

Make up milestone

A significant thing happened to me last Sunday so I thought I’d write a quick note about it:

It’s been about a couple of months or more that I’ve stopped wearing make up (the why warrants a whole entry so that’s for next time). Then on Sunday, we were going to our triple birthday celebration so I thought I’d wear a bit so I put on some eyeliner. I was expecting the usual feeling that I’d feel, that I’d feel pretty, but to my surprise, I felt like I looked better without any make up on! Wow. That made me feel good because I’ve achieved what I hoped to: to like my face on it’s natural state and bring back the standard of beauty as being without artificial make ups on.

There. :)

Opened an old email account

I opened my old email account and went back through 2008.

It brought tears in my eyes. Why?
Do I really miss those days? Do I really miss my old self?

Why would I miss uncertainties?
Why would I miss heartbreaks?
Why would I want to be in a situation where I would always be in a state of mind games?

I guess it’s the spontaneity, the excitement of being daring.

I guess it’s the thrill of my younger days, the feeling of being attracted to, of the feeling of being wooed.

Am I old now? Is mid life really like this?

Alone with the introvert

Coming back to reality,
I sit along the river side.
I want to be one with nature,
In rhythm with the swaying leaves,
In song with the chirping birds,
Flowing with the silent waves.

I wish to be unseen by my own kind.
These are the times I wish to be invisible.
Only to return when my heart desires to,
When I’m ready to grace my audience.

Hot Chocolate

Here I am in place where I usually feel relaxed.

I came here and ordered hot chocolate instead of my usual brewed dark roast coffee. Earlier when this incident happened with a coworker which caused me distress, I went to the office lunchroom to calm my nerves with coffee. But the coffee pot was empty, and I decided to not brew a new one since it was past 2 already and I don’t want to have a chance to waste coffee. It’s probably a blessing, cause coffee would have probably not calmed my nerves down.

So I headed here with hot chocolate in mind. Chocolates...happiness hormones...come calm me down please. I wish I can learn how to be calm at all times, especially when people make you feel small.

End of the month as a start

I know it’s been ages!

I’ve just read some of my old posts and oh my goodness, the warmth I feel, the magic...I really need to start writing again. So here I am typing my thumbs off on my mobile phone on my lunch break at work. It’s the end of the first month of the year 2019 and I am marking this as the beginning of (another) attempt to restore my writing self.

May fate and determination side with me this time.

Good luck to me!

Monday

Life.
Inspiration.
Friends.
Depth.
Purpose.
Joy.

I am in search of something I used to have.

But the subzero winter holds me back from the journey.

Cold.
Wind.
Fear.
Distance.

I went shallow because I know what happens in the deep.
But why is it hollow?


Translation without caffeine: I'd like to go to the library but I feel lazy to walk
a mile outdoors with -15C temperature.